It Is Well?

*I really don't expect anyone to read this -- unless you really want an overly-detailed explanation of what I know of my health problems. Mostly, this is just me venting.

I want the jerk who must have prayed for patience for me to show their face. I have a few choice words for you!
I'm so terribly frustrated right now! I received a message from my cardiologist's nurse yesterday, informing me that they had the results from my last echocardiogram (my second in two months). Input and output are fine, she informed me, but I do have some mitral valve prolapse. (In short, an "output" valve that doesn't push all of the blood through like it's supposed to. Wikipedia it if you want to know more.) The doctor hadn't looked at the results yet (then why the heck are you calling me?!), but everything looked to be fine. I attempted to call her back and left a message asking to have my doctor, specifically, call me back or schedule another appointment when he knew the diagnosis, good, bad, or indifferent. She called me back and said that they had an opening for me to come in this Friday morning. Great! Except I have a jury summons. Well then, the next opening she had was....next Thursday. Seriously?? I finally explained to her that I'm becoming very frustrated because nobody has been able to tell me for sure whether my recent health issues are a cardiac problem or not. If they aren't cardiac related, then I'd like to know so that I can go back into my family doctor and begin figuring out what it is. Well, there is some mitral valve prolapse (MVP) but she thought the doctor deemed it to be low enough to not be concerned, but he does want me to come back in after a few months to ensure that it hasn't worsened. She'd talk to the doctor and call me back. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

So I called my family doctor and now have an appointment for next Tuesday morning to begin to try to figure out what is going on with my body. From what I've heard from a handful of people, if this is not a cardiac issue at its root, it looks to be more like a thyroid imbalance - a pretty simple fix. I hope it's something as easy as that..though I think if I'm completely honest, I'd be a little frustrated that it's something as simple as that after all of this time.
I've been struggling with these issues for almost three months now. For three months, the root of my exhaustion, tachycardia, chest pains, etc. have remained unknown. This has been beyond frustrating for me. I've struggled with anger, fear, worry, anxiety; felt joy, peace, reassurance. This has definitely been one of the more trying times of my life. I'm learning a lot - I cannot and will not deny that. But neither can I lie and say that I'm "fine" right now. I have peace that my God knows what my body is doing and frustration that I do not yet know how and if it can be corrected. I know that I probably do not have it quite as bad as I think I do, but neither is this a walk in the park. I'm growing more weary, becoming tired of fighting all of this mess. Jesus, please help me! I can't do this on my own fading strength.

Make my prayer
Whatever my lot,
Thou hast taught me to say
It is well, it is well with my soul...